Friday, November 18, 2005

ok la

YOU WIN OKAY ?

i still love you so much.

because i checked out my msn list and saw tht he was offline.
and i felt.. so disappointed? thts th word. hah.
see. ): i tink im gg mad.

oh yeh/
MEANT TO TELL THESE LIKE QUITE LONG AGO ?
nvmnvm

__ told me smth la.
he said he tinks that ___ doesnt like me alr.
and that msg isnt sent by him.
mabbe sent by his fren cos he wanted t help.
ahah so many hes. nvm.

i was like relieved & happy
cos his frens are nice afterall :)
aha. mad.

then i cried in front of th com.
DUMB.
hurt me so bad. ): ): ): ): ): ):
got like so SAD.

IM NOT NEUTRAL.
IM POSITIVE.
damn. ):

i know i'll get even more hurt.
but.

i dont know. i will try to forget okay?
but.

there are always Buts.
buts and buts and more buts.
thats how i lost him in the very first place right ?
cos i.. just lost myself.

SO CLOSE I COULD ALMOST TASTE IT
YET I LET IT SLIPPED AWAY.


i am the worst woman anyone have seen.

i miss him
i miss him so badly
though he was just a few metres away from me

shit im gg t cry. ):

only almost here,
2:20 AM.